Hi everyone, I am hoping for some feedback with a concern. Lately, I'm plagued with worry that it's not possible to truly know someone. I think it's not possible to a see a person the way they see themselves, or to see the world through their eyes. Accordingly, words are very inadequate to convey the emotion one feels. Moreover, people behave differently in various circumstances, which makes it more difficult to get to know someone. I don't think it's possible to know every turn of someone's thoughts, every nook and cranny of their mind, their little idiosyncrasies and innermost thoughts. To sum up, I feel alienated from people around me.

For context, I was in a relationship two years ago in which I got to know my partner very intimately. We shared our most private and sensitive thoughts with each other. Maybe I feel alienated today because I haven't felt connected that way to anyone else. However, I also feel like I don't want to get to know anyone. In that relationship, I found out things about my partner I didn't like and I'm wary and vigilant of getting to know people because I might find out something that makes me uncomfortable. In fact, I don't even see the point in getting to know someone.

Yet I'm lonely.