I'm mean unmedicated. OFF meds depressed I totally stop responding to anything. I'll just lay down and go away for days/weeks (no food, bathroom, anything). I'm often psychotic on both sides of the spectrum. Depression feels like the flu without it getting the cough. I sleep 12+ hours, stop talking. Even on meds I have delusions and hallucinations just not homicidal or suicidal.

Thought process
Mania
It's your (person I'm near) fault I mad.
Your (person I'm near) the idiot, asshole (Insert derogatory name calling here) that I need to spell things out for when all I want to do is kill you (literally).
You (person I'm near) are plotting against.
I feel so powerful.
Self harm would feel so nice!
I want to see what inside my arm looks like.
who need sleep?
This house is so dirty.

Depressed
DH is going to kill me.
I need a tummy tuck maybe if I start one the hospital will finish it.
He's only with me because x,y,z
I'm a horrible mother
I should OD
All consuming thoughts of my death.