Oh man, it isn't fun. I wish I could have a steady baseline. I can't say I "look forward" to mania because it agitates me in the end. I consider it all a bit of give and take. I still try to be creative and such but I have to admit that I've lost an edge I used to have. I used to be able to crank it on a dime......but then I'd crash and start punching things.

These days, I handle it well enough but it creeps back up on me.....I'm not destructive anymore but I still have bouts of anger and blame. Thankfully, my cycles are pretty quick so I don't linger in one state for a prolonged period of time.