It's a fair question to ask but I doubt you're purposefully faking anything. That thinking comes from society - society tells us that there's "nothing wrong" with us and we're making it all up. I landed in a doctor's office for a reason and I have to trust what he says. I'm not a doctor, I just play one on TV. I've been advised to be *very* careful about thinking this was all mistake or I've been cured. I need to remember who I was before my diagnosis - an incredibly unpredictable jerk who drank too much and alienated everyone in his family. I don't want those days back.

Consider what brought you to where you are now. We all travel some road that lands us here.

Relative to your medication, perhaps you can speak with your clinician about paring down some doses or eliminating those that might be unnecessary.

Good luck, Sister Bluegirl.