Yes .. I had to wade through all kinds of hell to find this peace. All sorts of abuse CSA/Rape(s) physical and mental just to name a few.

One day I was seeing my T and I was wrestling a few too many things .. he said .. Well.... how many cans do you want to keep kicking down the road ? A imagine popped into my head of me frantically run back and forth trying to keep all the cans going about the same way.. It was the "Ah Ha" moment.. I realized I had to decide what was I really trying to find out about X issue.. Was an eye opener of epic-ness

I just looked at each "thing" and thought ...okay is this worth my time? Lots of things I had no control over, None.. so why bang my head into the wall .. Ok CSA happen , Yep it was horrible, but I cant change it. I went through rapes .. again it happened , I cant change it .. So I just looked at whatever it was, examined it and basically tucked it away in the back of mind.

So .. basic steps .. See a problem or issue .. Can I fix it? does it need fixed? Am I kicking a dead horse and trying to also feed it ? So yeah I did lots of processing and putting it away in the back of mind, I will say I packed all them up mentally is beautiful box and tucked them away.

I am getting IV Lidocaine infusions for my Fibro . I was a huge skeptic .. But it drops my pain a lot ! Very worth it, Right now I go weekly I hope to be able to stretch them out to Biweekly. I hope it continues to work this well , No need for me to worry about it now... I am tired of borrowing problems.. Mindfulness at its best, take things as they come .. and Most of all........ breathe~

Hope that helps