Im struggling with accepting the life i have and life itself. this cant be my life! i hate it. and this life we all are supposed to live, this cant be life. i hate them both. how do you accept life itself and the life you have?

i hate being jobless with nothing to do all day and i hate working (any kind of work).
i hate having to see people but then i hate having no friends.
i hate being a single all my life and i've hated being part of a couple for those few months i had a boyfriend.

i hate everything and its opposite. this is making me go insane. i just cant accept life and i wish i could just skip it all and die.