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Originally Posted by cmc3663
I have BP 2 and BPD. I get hypomania and depression usually about four days at a time each. Within that I get really angry, do impulsive things, self harm, struggle with depersonalization, and am convinced that my husband is always trying to leave me. I am currently on 40 mg of Latuda and that's it, because I'm pregnant. If you don't think your doctor is listening to you, can you get a new one?
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My hypomania and depression (before my meds) lasted about a week each. I don't get the way you are describing, during hypomania. I do experience irritability and a need to get things done faster, but primarily I feel elated, more motivated, and on top of the world. I do sometimes experience intense anger that makes me want to break everything in sight, but I don't act on it. I have a lot control over it than when I was a teen. I'm completely out of control when it comes to my separation anxiety. It's crippling. I feel totally lost when I'm alone, especially in public. I've broken down just from my boyfriend getting up to get popcorn in a movie theater, while I wait in the seat. I do not fear that he will leave me, but I often fear that he will die at work. That's why I was confused about this BPD diagnosis of mine, because I did not realize that could count as fearing abandonment.
My pdoc is definitely listening to me. I didn't mean to give off that impression.