I totally get how you are feeling...I feel the same way. A friend of mine...when I was in a very depressed mood got me to listen to Coheed and Cambria...blood red summer, time consumer, the suffering. I really like these songs...they are somewhat like I feel....I also have discovered Flyleaf. They have some songs that I can relate to...I know how you are feeling and I hope that everything gets better....when I get really depressed I listen to songs like Blue October "hate me" and Radiohead "creep", I also listen to switchfoot.

Maybe some of this music will help you....personally if you are feeling really bad, I would stay away from the last few I mentioned...they seem to bring me even further down.

here for ya...