{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Inky}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I know how you feel. Since I've always been a very vocal person, I find that writing my feelings down and maybe even screaming, helps me a lot. Of course, I do this when I'm alone so that as I type or write, no one will hear me cursing and ripping them a new one. But it sure helps. Taking a small pillow and beating the heck out of another one, or just any sturdy piece of furniture helps a lot, too. Restraining that "wild animal" doesn't help. It just makes it worse. You need to get those feelings out in a safe way. It's okay. Go for it!
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.