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Hey guys. Recently maybe some of you have seen my posts and about some anxiety attacks that I've experienced in the past few months because of my health anxiety.

Had my session today and we talked about something related to it but not exactly what I wanted to discuss. So I got home and once again something triggered my health anxiety and I ran into the shower and cried and cried until I couldn't breathe anymore.

Then, I experienced something that I haven't in a while, suicidal thoughts. I also realized that the only time I have these thoughts are when I start freaking out and worrying about my health (btw im only 20 if that helps). So before my session ended my T said that I can email anything that we didn't talk about or anything that comes up within the next 2 weeks (I can't go next week since I have school work to catch up on). So I want to send my T an email about what happened today like the crying and the extent of my fear but I dont know if I also want to say I have suicidal thoughts. I'm worried to say it because:

1 - What if she forces me into a mental hospital?
2- What if she tells my parents?

I would NEVER act on these thoughts but they just come into my mind when things get extremely bad. So yeah, not sure if I should mention it or not.

What do you guys think?