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Old Feb 08, 2016, 10:30 PM
Torgath Torgath is offline
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Member Since: Feb 2016
Location: Wl bc
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I'm currently still in high school, and about 3 years ago I found that I loved to draw/paint/write. Since I realized that, I've been desperate to get good enough at it so I may do it as a living. But for the past two months I've lost all intrest. Its not like I havent felt like practicing before, sometimes for weeks at a time, but this is different. I feel as if I've lost ALL I interest in my studies. Ive gone from studying between 2 to 6 hours a day on average, to 10 minutes if I'm lucky. Whenever I sit down to practice, it's like I never enjoyed the act of creating in the first place, and I would rather go fool around on the Internet. But of course that isn't fulfilling either. I hate everything I produce, it looks amateur, and I think I may have almost had a nervous breakdown not long ago while looking at the work of some artists I admire, and feeling like all the time I've put into practicing has been for nothing. The end result of this freak out was me just lying on the floor with my mind going crazy and tears in my eyes. I've begun to feel genuinely terrified that I've lost whatever interest I had in creating, and that Ive just wasted three years of my life. Not to mention that just the idea that i may not end up making a living as a creative person literally makes me feel sick. What's wrong with me??? I should also note that I homeschool, and therefore have enough free time to get hours of art study done without working late into the night. Please help.
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