Thanks again! I guess maybe I don't fit any of these but I'm not entirely convinced that I don't do some of it. Like I do dissociate. There are times when I can't recall what I've been doing for hours on end; but, somehow I am positive I haven't been sleeping. I live alone with my cat and dog; so, there is no one else to say what is real or not real or what has been going on really except for me. I had a late appointment last night with my pdoc. His conclusion was that a lot of what I'm experiencing is due to meds they used to treat my symptoms; kinda odd don't u think? I think so anyway. He's taking me off some hard things I think it's gonna be tough and hopefully not too stressful for my body atleast. Like I have one week to get off valium which i've been taking twice a day for 3 weeks straight; and it has helped me but he says the one's he's taking me off of or reducing are causing most of the problems like mania, forgetfulness, possibly dissociation, nausea, blacking out instead of sleeping, insomnia, etc. He's also taking me off effexor in a 2 week span which I've been on for a long time like I think atleast this year. He's upping my lithium because of the mania and the level was .4 and it should have been .8. He's reducing the artane for agitation and shaking, and keeping me on trilafon, and seroquel.