I really want to Thank everyone at PC who has made comments and shown their support. That's why I like it here; it seems like a safe place where I can really open up and be myself; something I have a hard time doing even with family because I feel like they don't or can't understand. My stepmom for example who may have a right to be hurt by me because I moved out when my dad had gotten back from surgery on his ankle and was kinda restricted to bed or the house for a while, and she had to take care of all of their animals (the have a biz with a petting zoo, pony rides, and snake/alligator photos) and my two little brothers (12 and 15 at the time, this past winter). going of on a tangent; need to pull it back in.... She has acted differently towards me; sometimes it seems she lacks respect and compassion. I'm not looking for her pity only mutual love and support; but, I guess she feels I walked out on her and the rest of them, so things are different now and I've talked about it with her but she just gets madder and is like picking at an open wound. And unfortunately I don't things will ever be the same again. Then again I saw how they treat my twin when she moved out and so I guess I should have expected it. Also we're treated differently because we are girls (by both her and my dad) and not hers (by her). My apologies if this is not appropriate for this forum; I guess I just need to get some t hings out even though I see a therapist twice a week and have a dbt group I got to once a week. I know a while ago I was shaking pretty bad. Right now I feel very depressed like I wanna cry. Is it just me that these things are coming up or is it something else? I mean I dont think it could be withdrawls, could it? I really don't know what to think.... Just feeling overwhelmingly sad right now