I just want this all to end. I don't want to be schizophrenic/schizoaffective. I want to be normal. Why can't I just be normal? Why the hell is this happening to me? How did I turn out to have a psychotic disorder?! Why me? Why now? I had so much to live for. I was going to be somebody. Now? I'm nobody and always will be. Please God, make this end. I can't take it anymore. I'm about to crack!