Dear Pdoc

I'm seeing you this afternoon. It has been 6 weeks since the last appt. I'm a bit nervous. I always act like a stupid teenage girl when I'm with you. I hate it. Why can't I just act normal, just be myself (not that I'm normal, I'm a bit weird).
It has been a little over a year since I first met you. And I've been having feelings for you for about a year now. It wasn't like *pats boem*. “I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.” (The Fault In Our Stars). These feelings haven't go away or become less since.
I'm tired