i find it kind of soothing but not enough. sometimes it plainly makes me go crazy. but my mind refuses to do any other activity that would calm the mind as reading or watching tv. i keep walking back and forth to try to calm down but it usually helps too little and instead brings more agitation because i cant solve the problems i have or calm down the thoughts or the negative feelings.

what do i do? i dont want to keep walking back and forth in my room and feel like going insane but it seems its the only thing my mind and body are willing to allow me doing. i'd rather cry, scream, go for a walk but the only thought of doing something else repulses me.

any idea? on why it is this way and on what to do?