hi

My name is Dorine and I have been Dxed with D.I.D for over 10 years. I fear I should be well by now, you know..Whole, but here I am and I'm glad I found this web page.

When I say 10 years I mean I have been getting help with the D.I.D for that long but not with the same T. In fact..I Just got a new T and have had one session with her. After what happened with my last T I'm scared to be alone in a room with anyone. I'm also scared that I wil be abandoned and have to suffer this hurt again.

With my last "T" she and her husband forcibly tried to do a excorsism on me. I was terrfied. There is a lot more to what happened that night in my therapist office but it's to painful to speak about. I am still shocked that my "T" would do this and I am very hurt that she is gone. She got fired from the mental health institute that she was working for We had no closure. I got no explanation why she thought that tieing us up and forcibly holding me down so her husband could try and perform and excorsim, would help us. Even though she did this..I am really grieving the loss of her as my "T"

Before this happened, she was really helping us, We rusted her and she seem to care about us. This is So out of the norm of what she would do, so I don't understand why she did it.

I am set up with another appt with this new "T" but I am so scared to even think of trusting her, but I know that without therapy we will continue to go down hill. I never thought I could ever be hurt by someone to this extent, especially by someone I totally trusted.

Any suggestions on how I can get over my fear? I feel really alone right now and very depressed. All because I miss my old T so much. I just can't believe this happened.

Thanks for listening.