I hate everything
a conversation with my dad just sparked off everything, plus an earlier argument with mum.
my mind is back to torturing me and i can't stand it
I wana cry but i can't.
i am so tired of my life around these illnesses. I hate them and I hate me.
I don't wana pretend to be fine in school
i have so much undone work for this holiday which need to be finished.
i wish i can live in the alternate reality.
I hate everything.
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Bipolar, BPD, ED
increasing med right now: a downhill slope
Seroquel 200mg
Epilim 300mg
Olanzapine 5mg
Amisulpride 50mg (just started trying this)
Clonazepam 1.5mg
Ativan 1mg (PRN)
Zopiclone (Imovane) 10mg
In psychosis and struggling worse with ED
I skip med because I would rather be psychotic than living in the real sucky world
Who can understand?...
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