I wished you didn't feel embarassed. It seems perfectly understandable wanting to hug the book and fall asleep. Your connection with your therapist is so intimate with intense longing feelings all mixed together, it makes seperations, such as vacations, difficult. Hang in there. I found for me, the missing part got easier as the week(s) went on.

Another thing I find to happen after hers or mine vacation. The first session back is terrible. You have all these pent up feelings, feelings that have had no place to express themselves and then you get there and YIKES. Where did my T go? She seems like she is still on vacation! It always takes us awhile to get back on the same page.