Oh my god yes... I have sometimes said I have a bad memory for every situation & occasion! Everything that comes up triggers some sad, embarrassing memory. It frequently occurs to me that I hope I have always been mentally ill (although it only became overt in middle age) because if not that means I was just a bad seed.

I'm glad you are actively seeking a therapist to help you with his, Keegan. Hopefully your efforts will pay off soon. In my own case, while I have talked with a therapist about some of what haunts me, there is additional stuff that is so humiliating I could never speak of it to anyone. I will take it to my grave...