Thank you again Quarter Life Today he even told me that I cannot understand him. He does not operate in a "human" way. Its driving me crazy, I want to understand. I think that is part of why some people have trouble walking about from Personality Disordered people, because they are puzzles and our brains want to work out the puzzle.

My mood is very anxious and depressed lately and I think its because of him. He is an expert at what he is doing, trying to occupy all my mental and emotional space. I tried to resist him from the beginning and I guess I probably underestimated him. He seemed sweet and endearing at first, almost like a child, and I felt a lot of warmth towards him. I thought I would always have more power and control in the relationship and that he would be just a sweet guy who gave me attention now and then. If I had known his true character I would not have given him the time of day. But it got revealed very slowly, and now its like his hooks are already in me and its too late. It doesn't pay to be a trusting person, these days, I guess.

I think he'll never let me understand him. I think its part of his ploy to confuse me on purpose. Never let me know what he is really thinking or feeling (if he even has feelings). I still can't fathom what he wants from me. Any answer he gives makes no sense to me. This is so weird and its really wearing on me.

I'll think about talking to the police. I'm really not sure what they can do, besides having this documented in case things were to escalate.

Has your stalker threatened you or tried to harm you? Having a stalker for 14 years sounds terrible.