It seems like I only post negative things here sometimes, and I figured I would share that therapy for me has not been all doom and gloom, although it's no cake walk! I'm feeling much better today. It's amazing how moods can fluctuate, and despite all the rationalizing I think I'm doing, I can be a basket case one day and fine the next when nothing else has changed. Today I feel loved again, and I feel love again. It's been a rough whatever these past few days have been.

For me therapy has been a process of learning emotional material I never knew before. My main goal coming in was that I wouldn't turn into my mother, a mean BPD, and I no longer think I will. It has been an eye opener how much I want and need to feel loved, I would have never believed it if someone told me, I had to experience it. I feel like I've also learned from experience now how to feel loved, not that I can always turn on that switch, but the more I realize the truth the shorter my episodes of cynical depression I like to think.

What have you gained? What do you hope to gain? I am going to re-draft my goals, so curious what others think.

I love all you crazy people, and I'm glad I'm not alone in this struggle.