My wife and I have been separated for 18 months . She doesn't seem to care what I do / or don't do . Big part of why I left . I'd like to know someone cares about me and my welfare . However that is expressed , sexual , emotional , or other .

What has really thrown me off the rails is realizing how I have substituted these needs by doing therapy for three years . Since my therapist suggested I think about ending our relationship I've discovered how much it has meant to me . I'm angry with myself for feeling this way and knowing I can't hold him responsible at all .... he is "professional " detached and objective - this is his role . I feel like I was manipulated into trusting him and allowing myself to experience these feelings ... and now our "bromance" is over and he won't accept any responsibility for it's ending ? All this feels very junior high school I think ... but my reality is that I grew really close to him through this work and I feel very disappointed ? confused ? I can't stay / and I don't want to go / and I don't want to continue because I don't want him to think I'm not strong enough to get along on my own .

Can anybody help me sort this out ?