Hi c4e, I'm glad it's working out with your therapist. It should be OK to fight with your therapist but it's easy to think all is lost after something like that. I feel like I know something about depression and wanting to die, but I'm a bit lost when it comes to abuse issues, beyond knowing that it must be EXTREMELY difficult reliving it all. Have you thought about posting on Survivors of Abuse to see if anyone can help you with how to approach the therapy, how fast to go, what to expect with helping your little girl? There is a thread on 'do you ever get over abuse' which might be helpful. Maybe there are survivors groups where you live where you can be with people who have been through the same thing. It's always good to have someone know exactly what you mean and where you're coming from, and it could be extra support between seeing your T.

I do understand the cutting/drinking/self-medicating though I don't think I've ever felt the degree of pain you have (but hey, why compare!) Obviously your T does care about you.

I hope your sessions with your little girl work out, I've no idea what's going to happen there!!! Let us know. And we're always here to talk to when you're in pain!

Debbie