I am so sorry if I caused you worry .. no sunny bunny is alive and well ... just her bad knee ... and that dumb looking cat ... she was on instagram just last week ...

saw her picture today ... cried a little ...

for those that care I am starting back with a T as soon as insurance can arrange it ...

pdoc finally returned my message 6 days later ...

I quote " you will NEVER have an anti depressent " ...

so my request to my T will be .... "keep me alive" ... that's all I want from him/her ...

thanks for caring guys ...

I know my pm is turned off ... not real sure I need to be talking to anyone that way at the moment .... maybe after I see T ...

I still cry myself asleep to one of her songs ... on really bad days ...