Raspberry...do you think it might be prudent to have someone dole out your meds for you? I don't know if your husband would be willing but you seem to be very impulsive with overdosing. Its dangerous. I'm sure you don't want to go ip again but if I had done what you did my dr would have called the cops on me then and there. You may not see it as serious but it is. It's concerning that you could be so blasé about taking an overdose.

I'm not trying to condem you; I am in the same boat. I just care about you and worry for your safety.

As I said I am in the same boat. Little tasks seem absolutely insurmountable. Just the ordinary functions of life such as making my son dinner and playing with him are overwhelming. I am in the throes of a debilitating depression. You are clearly feeling some type of way (to borrow a phrase from my students). i really have no advice except to hold on and hope the depakote works for you. I know that's not much.

I just want you to know someone understands and cares.