I knew something happened to me early on also, but, couldn't recall the specifics. My t wouldn't push the subject at all because she didn't want me to create false memories. She told me to just pay attention to any thoughts that would arise around the situation and not to force myself to think too hard about it. She advised me pieces of the puzzle would eventually fall into place. She was right. After a few pieces of that puzzle fell into place, the rest came barreling in.

So there's that. I think the harder to try to remember, the harder it will be for those memories to come. They will come when you are ready to receive. Wishing you well on this tough journey.