Possible trigger warning about SA

After not seeing my T for 3 weeks due to a snow storm last week, I saw T on Monday. I went in having a direction for what I wanted to talk about (my H and SA). It kind of started that way, and then we got stuck on why I have such a problem with saying a certain word out loud. He wanted me to say it out loud..."My H (insert word) me." I just couldn't, and started crying which I rarely do besides shed a few tears. He was very calm during it, and trying to get me to stay with him and work through it and breathe.

I was so shaken up even after he checked in about how I was feeling SI/SH wise, but I still just left. And now I keep replaying it and getting more anxious about it. I'm not sure what to do now.

I'm not blaming him for going there, it's more of my anxiety over saying that stuff out loud and just all the emotions that come with that. I don't see him again until the 25th either now, unless for some reason there's a cancellation next week I could see him then.