Thanks for the replies guys. Well, I am seeing a psychologist more or less once a week. But still, I don't know if that's enough as well as I don't really know if I can call her, because maybe I'd have to pay for that as well, and psychologists are insanely expensive where I live and I don't think I could afford going there more often, because I would probably not have enough money to buy food.

I've tried cutting myself off of my ex, but it just got my depression so bad, that I was feeling as if a panic attack is about to come, but it never did. And I couldn't fall asleep. And couldn't concentrate. Until my panic attack came, and then I called my ex. So cutting myself completely off when I don't really have anyone else to talk to is not really an option.

I'm no longer enrolled in the school, because I graduated this past summer. I will enroll once again and become a student in September, so sadly at the moment can't really ask for the school's help.

But I really appreciate your guys response. Just knowing that someone else might've been in a similar situation in one way or another is a little bit more comforting, which sounds really messed up.