Hi, I am new to this board. I am 58 yrs old, and I have survived much in my life time. I just joined the PTSD board, but need this board more...
I have been in and out of therapy since I was 15 yrs old. I take 300mg of Effexor daily.

I survived the ugliness of my childhood at the hands of my mental unstable father to the point that my sisters and I don't have any memories of holidays, birthdays, etc. or anything else about your childhood...except the fear that we still hold on too...sadly.

I survived the neglect of my husband of 17 yrs...now deceased.
I survived one attempted suicide in 1985.

I survived the abusive behavior of my son, who was neglected by his father. Whether this lead to his abusive behavior, I don't know. I do know though that he still scares me today when I am around him...he is 33 yrs old now. He has begun to process his behavior, which I am greatful for and has begun to control his angry outbursts, but this has not helped me feel safe. My fear of him many years ago during his teenage years was so great that I would simply freeze in my tracks or seat, waiting, just waiting...

I have terrible issues with male beings. It is very hard for me to be around males. They make me feel insecure and vulnerable. I have been single for 22 years now.

I have a progressive neurodegenerative disease for which there is yet to be a cure.