So I have posted other threads about my relationship but had another question over it. To give some background; I'm 30 year old female & am with a 35 year old man. We've been together 4 months. It has been a bit difficult through our relationship. I finally got in with a psychiatrist and I am recently diagnosed with bipolar to disorder general anxiety disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder. I have just started medication two days ago. My main issues with myself in the relationship is that I tend to be needy and clingy he always needing reassurance from him, which of course drives him nuts LOL. A lot of the time we will get into discussions and if I don't like what I hear I have a hard time just letting it go even if we have reasolved it. Last night he said something that really bothered me and surprised me. I hope this isn't too much information to be telling you guys this. He told me sometimes he just wants me to go down on him and that's it but the thing is what happens if I'm in the mood? I asked him mass and he said sometimes I won't feel like having sex and I'll just want you to go down on me. Even though we talked about it and we resolved it and he saw where I was coming from it still bothers me. Is this normal for guys to want this? Before we had even resolved it and he saw where I was coming from he told me that I more selfish than others. I don't see how I am selfish at all I always care about him getting off but I also want myself to as well how is that selfish? At the end he did admit that he's the one that's being selfish and not me but is still bothered me! We resolved it by us saying that if I'm not in the mood I will do that for him but I told him that goes both ways if he is not in the mood he'll do that for me. He completely agreed with it and saw house selfish and silly he was being. Why can't I get this out of my head why is it bothering me so much? We resolved it last night why can't I just let this go? This is one of our issues is because I can't let things go. I'm working with my therapist on this but he says that once I get mood stabilizers it will be easier for me. Is this true as well I've always been like this not being able to let things go. If I bring this up again my boyfriend is going to say we already resolve this why are you bringing it up again which he is right. I just hate how my mind works sometimes and wish that I could just let things go and not think about them anymore.