Thanks for the replies guys. It really means a lot to feel any kind of support, so really, thank you.

I wish I could just end all the contact with her, but when I tried doing that, it all just ended up worsening my whole condition. I started feeling constantly like I'm about to suffer a panic attack for like 5 days straight, couldn't really sleep at night, and finally I got that panic attack really badly and called her. So yeah, cutting all contact for me is not really a choice sadly. Even though I feel depressed, I still feel calmer just by being able to stay in some contact with her.

I am actually seeing a psychologist now as well and even her tip was to not break contact with her, because it's making my condition much worse. I meet with my psychologist about once every week, actually wish I could do it more often, but I really could not afford that. Psychologists are insanely expensive in the country I live in and if I tried doing it more often, I'd not have enough money to even buy some bread. And I'm kinda afraid of calling my psychologist when I feel bad, because I have no idea, maybe she will have to charge me for that or something. I haven't asked her about that actually, but I have a meeting with her today, and that's definitely going to be a question of mine to her.

I am no longer enrolled in my school, because I graduated last summer. I will start studying for my Masters again in September, but until then I can't really get any help from them.

Again, thanks for all the replies. I appreciate every single one of them.