Today I´ve had the fourth of fifth session with my new T and perhaps it´s too early too expect too much but I feel that I´m just reporting things to her. She wanted me to tell her a bit about my relations, to my family and so forth, and I´m absolutely willing to do so but now after the session I just feel empty and disappointed.

She´s within psychiatry, she doesn´t have her own practise, and I often feel in a hurry when I see her. I want to tell her things but I also want to feel a deeper connection. Besides talking about my family I told her about my suicide thoughts (no plans) and she knows about them from the first time I saw her.

But it feels like she´s so accustomed to hear from clients about suicide thoughts, as she handles a lot of trauma patients, that I don´t feel supported. It´s like telling her I had the flu during the week or something like that.

Of course I know I could talk to her but she´s the only T in this facility so I can´t get a new T that easily anyway. I also don´t want to give up already.

But the thing that we talked about today, I could more or less have told her in writing, I didn´t feel emotionally supported.

Has anyone else experienced something similar? For how long should I be prepared to wait before I feel a more deeper connection? Any other advise?