Dearest Freewill - God's work for us is not done until he says it is so. It is not our choice. I agree with all the others who tell you that your son will always, always need his Mom. My Mom is gone and even though I am 50 years old I miss her every day and always find myself wishing I had her to call and tell when something good comes up in my life or to call and cry on her shoulder when something traumatic happens. She was the only person in my life that I could or would do that with. Just because something is straightened out one day unfortunately does not mean it will stay that way. I still have my Mom's phone number in my book - I look at it from time to time and wish I could just pick up the phone and talk to her - it took me several years to actually stop picking up the phone to call her, then I would remember she was gone. Your work is also not done for the rest of the people that you have allowed in your life - like the ones I know about here at PC. You have helped us and supported us (I cherish your supporting PM to me) and shared your knowledge and strength with. Obviously, God still needs you to help others. And may be by helping others, in some way you also help yourself? I am terribly sorry about your dog. There is nothing to make that pain better - I just want you to know I understand. I have my Mom's Border Collie - she is 16 and I have had her for 8 years now. She is one of 2 beings that I love most in this world. Bless you (((((Freewill))))) - you are needed and necessary and valued. I pray you find your way through to see that.