Last November I thought all was fine ... and now just last week I have been diagnosed with Dissociative Disorder. I am an absolute basket case now and finding it harder and harder to function each day. I have found a therapist and I have only seen him 3 times but feel comfortable with him. But I can only get into see him ever week or two weeks and I just HURT. I cannot sleep and I have surges that rush through my stomach and brain when ever I start to fall asleep. I had a partial flash back in December of an incident when I was a child and now I cannot let that thought go. I did one session of EMDR and that was it. My world froze and at the same time a reality that I have been doing this for a long time came rushing in. I have been dissociating since I was a child but didn't know it. Since giving birth to my children 8 years ago I have suffered from "episodes" of terrible dizziness and fatigue. I have been to many specialists for all sorts of testing (MS, ENT issues etc) I have been treated for anxiety and for my migraines with Medications that made me completely loose it! Terrible reactions to Prozac, Nortriptyline and Trazadone. Now I find myself feeling so completely out of it. My molars in my mouth seem to grow in size, my senses have exploded and I can't handle the slightest of noise, visual stimulation or taste. I am loosing my mind.
My T has given me some skills to help me calm down - but I can't seem to do them on my own. I get so lost so quick.
Any support, thoughts or suggestions? I am at a loss.