Trying to find an answer to this question is what brought me to this forum.

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I believe this is most probably a trigger topic, but again, this is all new to me. So I marked the thread as a trigger. I hope I did that right!

Each time I am on my way to a session with my counselor, my hands and feet feel like they have electricity in them. Sometimes it gets stronger the closer I get to his office. I have shared this with him and he is aware of it. We have tried to connect with it, to see if it is trying to tell me something. It seems to be like a shadow that is scanning to see if there is anything threatening. I feel safe there, and we have very open communication. I don't know why a part of me would feel threatened. Does that make any sense?

During our session, I’m there, but it seems like I’m not all there. I am talking and I know what I’m saying, but it seems so distant and sometimes I say things and don’t know where it came from. It’s nothing threatening or bad, just comments that I wouldn’t normally say. Inside, I’m thinking, “Did I just say that?”

After our session, I come home and try to remember what we talked about. I try to write it in my journal so I can remember it. It comes back to me kind of like chapter names in an index for a book. The topics are there, but there isn’t content to it. I get bits and pieces, very fragmented bits at a time over the following days. I cannot piece it back together without it being in fragmented pieces.

Does this happen to anyone else? It’s really frustrating and I would love to know what to do to try and stay all there during my sessions. I’ve tried all the common grounding techniques, and they don’t really hold me here.

Thank you for any help or opinions!