My t tells me I suffered a pre verbal trauma. I have no idea what happens but she thinks I was left alone to cry and suffer and was neglected as a baby. She thinks this because I isolate myself so much and the idea of letting anyone close sends me into a cold sweat. I withdraw and retreat when people are near and am only starting to see why this is.
I think it could be worth exploring the idea of a pre verbal trauma! Somatic therapy could be good for releasing the trapped somatic symptoms. Talk therapy won't really help if you have no memory or can't verbalise what you are feeling.
There are some really good resume eleasing exercises online if you would like to google them. I did a few with t and it really worked. My ex t was a trauma specialist.

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