I feel kind of the same at times, I talk to my T but I'm often not very connected to her. I think it is me, not her. I think I don't expect her to respond to me, and I fear rejection. I think the connection will take a long time. I've talked to her about the fact that I feel that I could be talking to a stranger. I think it can't be rushed, and that even though there is so much to say it is better to take it really slowly and concentrate more on connecting in the early days and less on telling things.