The appointment with my GP was loming closer & closer. If I cancelled, I wouldn't have to deal with my loss of weight, & nobody would know any different. Guess there was a part of me that wanted to know how my new GP was going to handle this weight loss, but part of me didn't want to know. So I went ahead & went to the appointment....maybe he wouldn't remember last month or the phone conversation we had about the blood test results (they were ok anyway) & the weight loss..

I went in & the nurse asked me if I wanted to be weighed. Said I would skip it this time. In the room, she asked me what the visit was for, & let her know it was just a recheck. Waited for awhile with some anxiety growing. My Dr came in & asked me if I had been weighed on the way in. Said no,sir. Then he asked me if I had been losing weight this month. I could have lied, since they didn't weigh me...but said yes,sir. He said that he remembered I said something about having this problem before but said he didn't want to take me back to that time, so we need to handle it now. He said he remembered the phone conversation even if I thought he didn't, he said he really does listen. (Dang, thought it would have been mixed up with his other patient information) Then he asked me how I got through it last time. Truthfull, I couldn't tell him cause I really don't know except that my migraines had become so bad that all I could do was lay in bed between puking. It wasn't anything I did myself or consciously put any thought into (otherwise, I wouldn't have changed).

He strongly suggested taking vitamines in order for my nutritional level not to get messed up. Then he asked me if I had a pdoc &/or psychologist because he thought I did. Then he asked what they had to say about the problem. I told him that we hadn't talked much about it this time except that my Pdoc wanted to put me on Zyprexa because the side effect is weight gain. Also said I had only talked to my psychologist about it over the phone for a few minutes (didn't tell him I got a 1/2 hr lecture about it). He gave a frown at the idea of Zyprexa, saying he thought that was too severe way of treating it & that it should be saved as a last resort especially with my bad reactions to meds. Thought therapy would be better along with taking vitamines to make sure I stay healthy. I actually like the way he thinks sort of. That is until he wanted me to come back next month or call him if it gets worse. Now that is something that can be definitely left up to interpretation. Does he mean to call him if I lose more than 2 lbs / week, or do I call if I start feeling dizzy, or do I call if I lose any more weight? I will take the choice so I don't have to call. I know I will probably NOT lose more than 2 lbs/week, but can't guarantee anything else. He told me if I lose anymore weight I would have to have blood tests taken again to make sure I was ok. He did point out that the blood tests came back fine with only a concern about how high the glucose level was, but said that with the weight loss, that would go away.

He then insisted on my getting weighed since he needs to keep track of it. Well, just in case, I word real heavy shoes...that would add a couple of lbs since I didn't have pockets to stick rocks into. Just my luck, when I got to the scales, he suggested that I take my shoes off because they weigh too much...crap...didn't get away with that either & didn't have any pockets to put rocks into...past tricks come back to haunt me.

He wasn't happy about the amount I lost but said he would see me next month or sooner if it gets worse, & to start dealing with the problem with my therapy & he will take care of my physical side of it.

Back to the drawing board again...who knows what the future holds?
Debbie