Okay guys. I just got a reply from T. It was longer than usual and what my T mostly said was that it was great I was able to open up and that she is extremely sad that I'm going through this. My T also went on to say that it would be best to come in next week and I honestly think that it'll be the best for me.

My T said nothing about the thoughts I had but said that we are definitely going to go into more detail in session.

A bit of relief there. Thanks to everyone on this forum for helping me out so much. You all are amazing and I am so grateful. Thank you.