Hi everyone! I'm new to the forums, just signed up last night! I'm very excited to be a part of this community and I hope I can learn as well as give bak to the community [emoji1] A little about myself maybe? I was diagnosed Bipolar in the summer of last year. My mood is either depressed or very mixed all the time, no breaks between. I'm in a constant state of idk what lol (not funny but kinda is) if its OK I'd like to start with a question [emoji52].

I woke up this morning in complete mental anguish. I opened my eyes and immediately couldn't think, anxiety through the roof, and insanely depressed. Instead of trying to cope, I sleep for a few more hours instead. Get up feeling OK a awhile later, thought maybe I could handle the day.

So I was given a ps4 at work a few days ago, take it home and it dosent work. It's not big deal, I already have one, but I wanted to trade it in for a few bucks and get a new game or something. GameStop says they can do it. I drive 30 min to the one by the local Walmart and go in..... It's packed... I mean packed. My mood all day has felt very unstable and the line was getting to me. Finally its my turn, the woman informed me it would do me no good to trade it in.... What? I got a little snappy with her but kept my cool for the most part. My girlfriend and I leave the store and as soon as I'm outside this feeling comes over me, I thought this thing is useless and before I know it, I'm smashing the PlayStation against the pavement right outside the door! My girlfriend runs off embarrassed and I just keep smashing and smashing untill there is nothing left. (Pretty tough console BTW) I snap out of it and look around and ppl everywhere are staring at me! I put the pieces in the trash and ran to the car as hard as I could to embarrassed to say anything.

So I guess my question is, have any of you just lost control like this? Is this Bipolar related or something different? I'm so confused.. Any input and I mean any would be insanely helpful. [emoji2] Thanks for reading everyone! Hope everyone is doing OK and I hope to hear from u!

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