My t and I are stating to delve into done worse territory and although I am scared of it, I am also ok with what is going to happen in session because he will be there and he keeps saying he will keep me safe and I believe him.

There has NEVER been anyone in my life that has said they would protect me and didn't turn it into something bad later. I hope I am not wrong, but I don't think my t is going to do that and he keeps doing things that help me feel safe and even tells me in words. I want do badly to tell him how much these things mean, but I an to scared that if I do it will mean something to him that might make him back off. I read about transference and dependence and that some t's believe it is good and others negative, and I don't want to risk screwing up what is currently here.

How do you decide if telling your t how important they are and how much their actions have ment would be a good if bad step? I am sooooo scared that if I said it, he might pull it away but I really want him to know how much I think about his comforting words and how much they mean to me. Even more so, with the upcoming 'harder' stuff. .. I wish he would just hold my hand or do something supportive, but I don't know if that is a boundary thing or if he is worried about my reaction from my ptsd. .. but I know that is WAAAAY outside any chance of mentioning that.

I just don't know