It took me nearly two years to even say the word "abuse" to my former T. I don't think you need to verbalize it to admit it to yourself, but Ts seem to find some value in this. I think most people say it makes it more "real." I didn't find it to be that way...I just hate the way it sounds. I think for me it wasn't about admitting it to myself, it was about the way it made me feel weak and pathetic, like I'm such a baby that I couldn't protect myself and that I feel scared and anxious over it. But in my life, being "childish" has a very bad connotation... these types of words are a mixed bag of emotions for me.

This is a tough one considering your next session is so far away. I've never talked to a crisis worker, so I have no words of wisdom there, but I do think you should do what you have to do! Even if that means emailing T (unless there's a boundary or something).