I got my divorce papers today. It felt like a death certificate for our marriage. I lost a baby when I was four months pregnant, and I had to make a choice whether I was going home or if I would get in the car and drive. I have the same clear choice today. Do I give up or do I make a home for my four kids and nurture them? Do they give me enough joy to grow with love - yes and yes, but it hurts to witness my marriage dying.