There is one dream, or a set of dreams even, that I have contemplated the meaning(s) of for years. They were from when I was 16, and I'm 20 now. In the dreams, I felt intense paranoia of everyone around me. I felt everyone was against me or dangerous in some way, and that they had to be stopped at all costs. In one dream, my dad approached me asking me a question. I felt he was against me and before he got another word out I killed him with a knife, brutally. After the act, I felt very disturbed and tried to get rid of his body before anyone saw what I had done. In another dream, I ended up beating one of my best friends to death with a club, because I thought she was plotting something against me. In another, there were two people that definitely seemed to be threats - one with a gun, and his partner (?) with no weapon. I took the gun out of the man's hand but instead of shooting him with it, I stabbed him to death with a knife. I then chased after the other man and stabbed him to death too, even after he was dead, to make sure he was unable to be a threat to anyone ever again. And finally, in another dream, three men broke into my house but without actually doing anything wrong. They didn't even have weapons. My immediate action was to stab all three of them to death and then hide the bodies. I was not diagnosed with BPD back then, nor did I know what it was. Does this point towards my subconscious fear of people turning against me and me frantically trying to gain some control over the situation as a result, or am I nuts??