She took her own life two and a half months ago. I'm trying to connect the dots now about what happened.

She first got on Lexapro for anxiety disorder. The heavy drinking started about a month later. She did start drinking about a year and a half before, but not often. Enough to be concerned though. After she got on the drugs, the frequency and intensity just shot up big time. She started hitting the hard alcohol, hiding it, and lying about it. I couldn't deal with the drinking (I thought the issue was the alcohol, and not the meds), and I kicked her out many times in this period to stay at hotels, cause it was very difficult. I told her I was going to break up with her, but I loved her with all my heart, and I always took her back, till I couldn't take it anymore. 4 months later, she was at a hotel, and she was sitting out on the ledge. Cops were called, and they took her to the hospital for a psych hold. The doc then changed her to Zoloft 25mg. The drinking seemed to have intensified even more, but there were more lucid days this time around. Then 2 months later, after I called the cops to try to get a mandatory order for alcohol rehab, she left the house, stayed at a hotel, and took her own life. I told her when it happened that I told the cops that I don't want her locked up, or anything bad to happen. I just want the paper so I can force her into an inpatient rehab center. While at the hospital, she got diagnosed for mood disorder, and it was only a matter of time before the proper bipolar diagnosis would have come, and she would have fine tuned her meds.

I found everything out about her hospital stays after she passed, cause she refused to include me after she got on the meds.