I haven't been to therapy in over a year, I think, anyway, I am reluctant to engage my parts like I did when in therapy. It sort of like how we were before we knew. We are aware of us so it makes it easier to communicate without thinking we are nuts but I feel afraid to fully acknowledge us as parts. I am concerned that we might become dysfunctional in the world. We may be getting a new job and we need to be how we have been in the past. We need the worker parts to go to work. That used to happen automatically. But recently that hasn't been the case. In fact the worker parts don't really want to go to work. But we need the money. I don't see us working for a long time just for a few months. Unless the workers like the new job. Than maybe they won't mind going to work. I don't know. I keep thinking if we start thinking of ourselves as a system with many parts we will get lost again. There will be no order and everyone will be coming and going. I don't want parts to think they shouldn't be able to express themselves but I also don't want us to be seen. And too much switching out loud will cause trouble. If we get this job we will really need to decide if we are willing to work or not. And if we are willing to work that the parts who are the ones who go to work will need to focus and get the job done. That is what I think
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