I remember looking through journalist Jane Pauley's book Skywriting: A Life Out of the Blue about 15 years ago and thinking it sounded an awful lot like me. My sister was also skimming through the same book and said "I think you have that (bipolar)." All I really "knew" about BP then was that you had to take lithium for it, and I was having none of that. So I went undiagnosed for another decade...here I was, a nurse, and I didn't know squat about the illness. I was in a lot of denial. But I couldn't ignore it any more by the winter of 2011-12, when I was forced by my PCP to have a psych eval. I've been in treatment ever since.