Hello and welcome to Psych Central.(((DORINE))). I am sorry that you have been traumatized by your former therapist. I do understand the confusion that you must have at this time since you put so much trust into your former therapist. I just hope that you will try to stay open minded when you see another therapist, that not all therapists
are the same and will harm you in the same manner. DID is confusing enough to the person with DID than to have trust taken from them as well by a professional.It is very normal for you to have the emotional issues that you are having at this time and it is okay to still care for your therapist because your therapist was a very integrated part of your life. There is nothing abnormal about caring for someone that cared for you that you put your trust in while you are in therapy. There is no reason to feel awkward for your feelings and emotions at this time. It is good that you are able to express yourself in a honest manner to get the help you need at this time. I hope the best for you in your future with your new therapist and I hope you can feel better soon. take care. soidhonia