I can't even get a grip right now.

I saw a horrible video of abuse on facebook today that instantly and completely struck up those fears of being attacked. I didn't even click it but someone posted it in an attempt to raise awareness and it randomly started playing when I scrolled down.

There is no escaping these triggers. They are seriously everywhere. You can't just turn off the tv or the internet because even then you might hear stories from other people.

I can't stop thinking about what could happen and I can't stop checking around. And I can't stop thinking about the victim in that video. OCD goes beyond empathy sometimes and becomes disabling.